Almost.

I'm crawling on this realm, trying to not lose entire sense of language, as I can't not look every tiny part of entropy unfolding, and the declaring of concepts renders futile, or worse. When I feel like I have a lot to say, I don't like it in it's entirety because when it reaches another brain it will become another bifurcation of chaos, not reconcile anything, no matter how pure and worked my thoughts are. When I feel like I nail the feeling, I don't feel like I want to talk at all. So is that impossibility a natural feature, or a hopeless point in the eternal damnation of humanity? Even: Are both statements true? Being the agent that separated them is kind of painful.

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What I'm trying to communicate these days is that the problem these times relies on a profoundly damaged sense of self. Fed by a tumultuous history of relations (with others, with land, with concepts), the self is deeply confused and can't get out of it's invisible cage. Emotions, which were originally developed to guarantee survival, arouse from the menace of it's "integrity". Whether to call the menace real or fake has no space into the discussion; not even as denied, but it has no sense when the self is set at the point where the pulls and pushes start and end, where the last 20 words lose any meaningful meaning... That blind spot that became "me" and "us", that separation and interdepence, that collapse into itself. "What are the structures that hold that definition floating around in search of identification?" should be the question every time it reappears. Is it the only way to be alive?